I've truly realized the importance of daily quiet with the Savior. Without Him, a day is not worth living. Everything is out of place and basically screwed up. This morning I woke up with a million different thoughts invading my mind of everything I needed to do and the thought of the lack of money in my bank account. Instead of surrendering everything to God, I went straight to the computer to try to sort things out. Immediately I remembered my personal goal of not doing anything else in the day until I read my Bible and prayed. Consequently, nothing was accomplished at that moment. My mom asked me to go the doctor with her that morning. While sitting in the waiting room, I was flipping through the magazines, and remembered once again that I had not spent time with my Father. I pulled out my Bible and began reading. Ah! I felt SO much better.
My life at the moment is not where I want it to be, but I know it's where God wants me. I am home in VA waiting. Waiting? For what? Well, I'm not too sure of that. My heart longs to be back in Baltimore, but I haven't found a job there yet. I job hunt pretty much everyday. I graduated in May with my Bachelors degree in Church Leadership from Patten University. I thought for sure I would have a job after I graduated, but God had other plans. I've learned in my short life that an open door is not necessarily the right door. I've also learned that a closed door is not always closed. I've learned that if I wait, God does some pretty awesome things in the midst of my helplessness. Waiting does not come easily for me, and I think that's why God makes me do it a lot. If I received a report card for my walk with Christ, for the area labeled "Waiting" I would definitely receive an "N"--needs improvement. That's an area I have not mastered. So I will continue to wait until I get it right.
If you're waiting, hang in there! God loves you too much to leave you there. Here are two scriptures that may be beneficial to you. Psalm 138:8 says, "The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever—do not abandon the works of your hands." Philippians 1:6 says, "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Fulfillment and completion are two promises that keep me hoping and believing for greatness in my life, and I believe it for yours as well. Let's believe for each other!
